Static Sound

Static Sound

Well, connected to this post here.

On hiding your real you

Back. Well, that Na'vi post on my other blog was quite... underwhelming, lol. If I can come up with anything better I'll add it to it later.

Anyway, where was I going... ah, right. Hiding your true self. Every single one of us carries that little core inside. That core that is your essence, the real you, everything and every side of you you're trying to hide away from all those prying eyes or eyes who wouldn't really see and/or understand. Call it inner child, call it ugly sides, call it fetishes, call it traumatic stuff, call it whatever you want, it doesn't really matter. That core is composed of many things that we try to hide away - or have to hide in order to survive on a daily basis.
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That grainy noise

Meh, I still have to come up with something to post on my other blog; since the Weekly Na'vi Post project thingy is about to end, it would be a shame if I'd miss out on posting one last time as part of that project. Uhm, yeah, guess I'll just write about exactly that, hrh. It's about practicing anyway, so why the hell not.

Here I wanted to write about something different, tho. About what, exactly? Still can't kinda wrap my head around it...
Exactly this is kinda like a (n almost) constant state I'm in; my brain is always running on like 120%, always hyped up, never really calm or taking a break, always thinking about something, there's always background noise going on, kinda like static, ...

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Lest I forget

To me, Art is more than just an imitation or interpretation of life. Art is my life, and my art is me. Drawing anything just to draw something isn't what I want, what I need. Not on the long run. Of course, it's my job to take commissions from strangers and take their visions and feelings and translate them into a picture, into something that has a meaning to them, that is important to them. I've been doing that on a daily basis for the past... 3+ years, without a break. I've tried before to find myself again, I tried to draw in my old style, trying to get to the gutter of my soul again and tear some shit to the surface, but I wasn't really able to. So I kinda just... drew two new versi...

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"Morast" + "Finding myself again" (copy+pasted)

Copy-pasted from my other blog.

Morast

16. Februar 2017
Mir geht es seit einigen Jahren eigentlich ziemlich gut. Kleinere depressive Phasen, die aber mitnichten vergleichbar mit denen von früher sind - früher kannte ich über Jahre hinweg, eigentlich mein halbes Leben, nichts anderes als... "dies".

Im Laufe der Zeit verinnerlichte ich es, es wurde zu meiner Normalität, zu mehr als nur einem Teil von mir. Meine Welt, meine Realität, mein Inneres, mein Äußeres, ich. Meine Kunst war mein einziges wirkliches Sprachrohr, mein einziger, wirklicher Sinn. Der Schmerz war meine Kunst, meine Kunst war ich.

Seit ein paar Jahren habe ich immer wieder das Gefühl, ich hätte mich selbst, meinen Kern ...

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Well, hi

I thought I maybe shouldn't contaminate my language learning nerd blog with any more "dark" posts, so I created this blog here as a quick and easy outlet for all the stuff that's going on inside my head and which I feel the need to write down.

Posts here will be either in English or German, depending on my mood or how fast I need to type or how I'm able to convey feelings in either of these languages.

For my more peace, love and harmony-ish blog about Na'vi, visit Tskxekeng ne tìyo' - for more info about me and/or my art, go to SickDelusion.com.

Ah and greetings to that fucktard who took sickdelusion.blogspot.com in order to never post something ever up til today.

Also, this blog isn't a cry for help or begging for pity - you can keep that to yourself (constructive thoughts are always welcome tho). It's just here for me to sort my thoughts and to get 'em out of my head. Simple as that.

"You don't have to watch me sewing myself back together again"

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